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Behind Closed Doors

from There Is Always A Reason To Carry On by avoid.

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In your closet check for monsters, is he in your bed with you?
Do you say you love him often?
Was it a one night stand and a wartorn hand?
Do you like living in a coffin?
I used to dream at night of my life by your side
I’d have been there in a heartbeat, you never said I need help, I need out now
I’m looking back at the bruises when I saw you, you shook on the phone
It was 3 am, you talked to him, I watched you tremble

It isn’t home if there’s no safety in your bedroom, the one protecting you, he destroys you
And there’s no getting around a man with bad intentions and a heart of black
It’s a decision made; engulfed in hate; the very scum you always vowed to stay away from
I’ll never get why anyone gives the time of day but he manipulates
And he shakes you deep to the core, I’ve never seen you this weak before
I hope when you sleep at night your dreams don’t hurt like your body does

Well, he’s a fucking coward

From the bottom of my heart with all the air in my lungs
You’re still beautiful despite what he’s done
There will never be a day you don’t cross my mind
I pray(I pray) I pray(I pray) you’re doing fine

He said his daddy died when he was young; teenage years with his head to a gun
Blindsided by the fact that his vices are far worse than his suffering these days
He’s taking out all his feelings now, you’re the recipient of misplaced anger
He used to be gold, he’s always been bold, but he’s taking a stand in the worst ways

Cash said "a love should be burning."
He never once said aching or hurting

There’s a pain in your eyes I see it
Behind an ocean of blue there’s a mountain of bleeding
I just wanted to stop the blood from spilling
You can wear your scar but you don’t have to be it

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from There Is Always A Reason To Carry On, released December 8, 2015
Written and performed by "avoid."
Produced, mixed, and mastered by Chris Galvez at Good Fortune Audio
Photography by Hailey Held at Hailey Held Photography
Artwork and layout by Jacob Willenborg at Leviathan Lives

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