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Will you linger with your spirit?
Will you stay with me tonight?
My left hand behind my back, I will shake when I try
To force write pages and expose myself a lie
And hide behind portrayal through a character that leads my life
Did I exaggerate it?

When the ink runs out, what am I good for?
Anything at all?
Am I meaningless without this?

Am I the boy that you wanted?
Did I turn out the way you hoped?
Was I a mistake, a let down, a pill that you can't swallow

We play pretend that we're not real, intoxicate and then forget
Salivating at the though that self-abuse is masked respect

You were never there
I leaned on you the most
If the blood lacks a meaning
Should I cut this rope?
Place your hands around my neck
Press hard until I choke
With a bottle at night, I tried
I thought I could honor your ghost

Breathing life into my bloodline
A lesson learned an addict's fear
One day the dosage spits me out into a place I can't disappear
My body ain't a temple, just a place to wash my sins
They don't leave, and I don't pray
I will pay for forgiveness

I'll pay for the touch
We become what we create
I've made a mess

Pull me out of this spotlight
Bury me under the floorboards
Step on me
Give me what I deserve
As my last request, burn every picture, scatter my bones
When a storm comes and wipes out the foundation
You'll find me in the dirt

This is home.

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released January 26, 2018

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avoid. Cedar Falls, Iowa

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